I Think This Will Be Our Month

18 Dec

Granted, I think that most months.

But this one really feels different. Without giving out TMI, everything was as it should be this month. Besides, the timing couldn’t be worse, so there’s that….

-I just received and accepted a job offer this past Friday. My first day of work will be the day after I find out that I am pregnant and I feel terrible about this. Not exactly the way you want to start a new job. I’ll just cross my fingers that I don’t have terrible morning sickness or exhaustion. Neither of those things bodes well when you are teaching a classroom full of young children.

-We paid $100 per ticket to go to the New Year’s Event. The price is so high because it includes alcohol. Copious amounts of free alcohol. Obviously I will be unable to partake in that, but at least a percentage of the proceeds go to charity. I can stay sober for my own baby as well as other people’s sick babies.

-I finally made an appointment with the RE, the infertility specialist, for early January. If I get pregnant this month, then I get to cancel that appointment and can consider myself one of those women.

That being said, I will gladly put up with all of this if it means that I am pregnant and that I finally get my baby.

It’s going to be a long two weeks. What should I do with myself? No drinking at all or is an occasional glass of wine ok? How do I get my mind of off things? When can I test?So many questions you would think this is my first go round.

I have never wanted time to go by as quickly as I want it to slow down. This 2ww is a countdown to baby and to my new job. Talk about mixed emotions….

Seriously, ya’ll I really believe that this is our month! And I’m not even southern, the “ya’ll” just felt appropriate, that’s how excited I am. Which is probably why I get so devastated each month when my period shows up. How is it possible after a whole year of failure I am still able to get this so excited by possibility, so sure of what the outcome will be?

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4 Responses to “I Think This Will Be Our Month”

  1. Christina @ According To C December 19, 2011 at 10:01 am #

    Fingers crossed for you! I had the same feeling the month I got pregnant. I just knew. Hopefully your intuition is on track!

  2. K.Smitty December 18, 2011 at 4:58 pm #

    Gah! As if MY TWW wasn’t enough, yours is gonna kill me! LOL….Can’t wait for updates! Fingers crossed for you, Jenn!

    • Jenn December 18, 2011 at 5:25 pm #

      How fun would it be if it was both our months??? I googled it (because of course I did) and my due date would be September 7th. I seriously don’t know why I do this to myself. Hopefully, my positive point of view will lend itself to positive outcomes 🙂 Thanks lady!

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